"We're On A Road To Nowhere"

here i am in perhaps my favourite cafe in all of sevilla
it's nothing fancy
nothing about it stands out as being particularly Spanish
but still, i like it here
the coffee is good & cheap, only a 1 euro & 20 cents
there are screens that stream spanish music videos
but the speakers play american music
i find that contrast somewhat amusing
i have a feeling though that no matter where one goes in the world, it is nigh impossible to be able to fully escape american culture
mcdonald's is a huge deal here, all of them being 2-3 stories and always packed with people
there are 4 starbucks all within a 5 min walking distance of eachother
i found a movie store that only rents american movies, all dubbed over
it all fascinates me
makes me wonder what the real sevilla is like underneath this veil of the american dream
i amuse myself at the thought that although many countries don't seem too pleased with the states today, they are all too quick to enjoy our exports
& maybe that's why i feel at odds with this city
feeling so unwelcome in a city that appears to owe a lot of itself to the land from where i come
how do i attempt to fit into a culture that seems to both reject & accept me at the same time?
in other news, i went to a church concert last night
we had to take a bus a very long way to a church in the middle of nowhere
and sit through a 1 hr & a 1/2 sermon before even being able to listen to the singer
the concert itself was supposed to start @ 9pm, but didn't begin until 10:15
never again will i accuse my mother of being more than fashionably late:)
sitting there in the pew, bored out of my mind, i found myself & my friend Sasha talking with a guy a pew behind us
he's from Brazil, lived in the states for a while, and plans on opening an american style pretzel shop next week
we all left the church at 11 to catch a bus, myself & 5 other girls, only to end up sharing a bus stop with 3 other concert attendees
1- a guy from paraguay who also lived in the states & can speak english
he was more than amused at the fact that he could ask one question & all of us would respond simultaneously with the exact same answer
that starts to happen when you hear the same basic questions over & over again
2- a british guy studying chemistry in spain
& 3- a girl also from brazil studying english here in spain
we had to wait and hour and a freaking half for the stupid bus
giving us plenty of time to discuss the differences between all of our cultures
beautiful conversation
then my lady friends & i had a picnic on the bridge at 2 am
all in all an adventure filled evening
such experiences are always better with friends along for the ride
& so here i am
on a rain drenched saturday
not really interested in going back to my host home
but not really wanting to go anywhere else either
so here in my cafe, i will stay
meditating on the world wide impact my country has
contemplating the beauty of the fact that although we all come from different places,
we're still all very much together in this world
striving to feel some sense of belonging

"There's a city in my mind
Come along and take that ride
And its all right, baby, its all right
And its very far away
But its growing day by day
And its all right, baby, its all right"
-Talking Heads