All You Need Is Love, Love Is All You Need

i have been reminded lately of how important it is to love.
how if we have not love, we have nothing.
this is particularly difficult for me as i have been forced to realize how little i have been loving.
this place
these people
her
him
you
myself
all without love.
i hate that.
i want to love, but i cannot force it
nor can i remain indifferent
i need love to take a hold of me
so i may love others
because "love is all you need"
also?
i am deeply missing home
my family
my friends
my school
theatre
my heart is so thirsty for theatre there are no words to express it
but?
there is some dancing in the darkness
i get to see my grandma for a weekend in december
i miss her a lot & will be counting the days
& i am going to london for a week
a dream
also?
this weekend i look forward to spending with friends here
going to evening concerts & morning markets & such
next week i get to start working with homeless people
providing them with coffee & conversation
two of my most favourite things

so for now, those things will keep me
until we meet again,
may you feel the love

"oh i don't know where else i'll go
it's out of the warmth
& into the snow"
-the morning benders